so lets start with a song, of course.

-Just til noon- Jordan Reynolds

six a.m. just like every other day
i drive to work
seems like the world is mad at me
got my eye on the clock ready for my break
got a smile on my face but i know that it is fake
lord give me the strength to make it through this day

just til noon
i wanna love you
cause any more than that is more than i can take
just til noon
there is no one else above you
when i get to noon I'll take on the rest of my day
lord help me make noon

its not the same that it was two years ago
our love is gone
and im afraid that i must go
and the tears filled her eyes as the man walked away
she dropped to her knees and with a broken voice she prayed
lord give me the strength to make it through this day

just til noon
i wanna love you
cause any more than that is more than i can take
just til noon
there is no else above you
when i get to noon I'll take on the rest of my day
lord help me make noon

nobody ever said that it would be easy
you only said that you would take care of me

Just til noon I'm gonna love you
cause any more than that is more than i can take
just til noon there is no one else above you
and when i get to noon i'll take on the rest of my day
with your love and grace i'll take on the rest of my day
lord help me make noon
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Ok...so, pretty incredible. I met Jordan on new years eve, and when i found out he was a musician and working on an album i creeped on him on facebook so i could check out his music. I was pretty blown away by this song, because it is exactly how i have been feeling the past two months. I feel like im going from hour to hour. I've just been so worn out, in every way. I just want to be honest about where i am right now. And right now I'm tired...and I just pray that i can make it through the rest of this day, learning to love God as i go, even if i have to do it on an hour by hour basis. But i know that we could not love God unless he helped us to love him, and gave us the strength to love him. We cannot pray except by being taught by him.