I dont know what God is speaking to my heart right now. I do know that God likes to stretch our hearts, and shape them, and break them and rebuild them the way that HE wants them. I know that when it comes to being open to God's plan for our lives, we need to ready ourselves for sacrifice, and for hurt. But that isnt where God's divine plan for our lives ends. It would be foolish to focus on the pain that comes along with following Christ, and not focus at all on the immense blessing that He has in store for us. Tonight in the Church, as i was praying, the one prayer that stayed on my heart was that God would fill my heart so completely that there would be room for nothing else, unless He allowed for it. I know i say this all the time, but it's got to be tiresome for God that i have such a hard time trusting in Him, when through it all God is whispering to my heart, telling me not to worry. I know that i always come back to this, but listen to how clear He makes it for us in Matthew 6:

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? Consider the lilies of the field. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

We are called to seek His kingdom first. His kingdom first. Lets think about all of the things that we spend our time seeking: acceptance, approval, beauty, love, esteem, honor... how many times a day do i overlook the fact that i should be seeking the kingdom first and foremost? Is it possible to truly live this out...to not worry about tomorrow, to not worry about the opinions of others, to not worry about finding love, to not worry about whether or not I'm beautiful?
God is telling us this: Tomorrow is taken care of, you will have everything you need if you follow Me, you are beautiful in my eyes, I have a plan for you, I love you.
God wants to take us over.
There is a song that we sang at camp a few times that i actually hate, but one of the lines said that God is wider than the gap He fills. He is more than enough.

Consider the lilies.