Only a few more days until we have to make our final decision about whether or not we are going to stay with FOCUS another year or move on to something new. Our decision was originally supposed to be made by tomorrow, but we were able to get an extension of a couple of days so that Pat could seek some guidance from his spiritual director.
Speaking of Father Jim, he happened to be in Rome this past week during the conclave and election of our new Papa, and he sent Pat a text message saying that he offered up Mass for us at St. Mary Major on Friday morning. Pretty awesome!!!
Discernment is hard. Sometimes God makes things very clear, and sometimes he stays silent. I do believe that sometimes the silence means that He wants us to make the decision that we think is best. It's like marriage...ultimately at the end of the day we just have to make a choice that THIS is the person we are going to love, through thick and thin. This isn't our first rodeo in terms of making a big life decision that could potentially send us somewhere new. We went through this last year too. These kinds of decisions require so much prayer, together and separately, and a lot of conversation. I think it pleases God when we come together as a couple to really discuss and pray about where He is leading us.
I do think that either way, He will bless us in a big way. I KNOW that no matter what we decide, we will still be relying on God to provide for what we need. I think I've mentioned this before, but we are going to have to make this choice without knowing what other options there are on the table for us. I think that this is just the way that God wants it to be.
He wants us to make a decision without being able to see what's around the next corner. He wants us just to trust. Difficult? Yes. But I'm not scared. Being in a vulnerable place as a family, and having to just trust that God will take care of us has been a constant state of being for our family for the last year and a half. I know for a fact that God won't be abandoning us anytime soon.
So, with all of that being said, I guess we should all stay tuned for what God has planned. I sure don't know what it is, but it's bound to be good. :)